Growing up

So as I have grown I have notice that some things I once did must stop. Those days when you hold on to things that you should let go are finally here for me. I have noticed when you hold on to things that you no longer need you stop other things from happening in your life. Those forgive and forget days are also approaching slowly in my life. I don’t deal top well with things leaving out of my life but I guess that’s something you learn how to do as you grow up. They say you don’t know what you got until its gone but they don’t say what happens when they leave and you still don’t see what you have. My ass kissing days are also over. I notice that ii spend so much time loving someone else that I have stop loving myself and that’s something that should have never happened. They way I act others might see it as being childish but I say im growing up letting go. ♥



Walking out

How you tell me u love me and tell her you love her in the same breath; I thought I would your one and only but I guess I’m that Someone Else; The thought of her having you when I work so hard on you ; our arguments mean more then our conversations ; our iHateyou’s mean more than our iLoveyou’s ; she was suppose to be a thing of the past but instead it’s me leaving ; all I have is memories ; memories of the good and bad times ; as I walk away ii hold on to the laughs tears and iLoveyou’s ; the days when ill call you for nothing are now gone ; the piece of your heart that I once held left when you said that you love her ; As I walk it feels like shackles holdin me back ; I never said walking out your life would be easy; I neva said it would be painless; damn I swear ill miss everything from the way you kissed me to the way you held me ; the way you pulled my hair when it was just you and I ; To walk on pins and needles to get to you and only end up in fire ; my heart is an organ that heals on its own but my feelings are here to stay ; why was is it so easy to fall in love wit u but so hard to fall outta love with you ; this is a journey I didn’t wanna take ; but I’m Walking Away


Unanswered questions

What I don’t understand is how you can make me mad to the point where I’m about to cry but I still love you? How can u stop speaking to me but I hit you up everyday? How is it that I could not see you one day and I miss you like crazy? How is it that I have so many options but no matter how many questions I’m ask the answer is always you? How is it that when I think I have the courage to leave I think about you with someone else and change my mind? How is it that I could write my feelings down put become stuck when its time to comfront you? How is it that you could tell me 1000 lies and I believe everyone of them? How is it that you could tell me you care about me but can’t say you love me? How is it that when your around your all I think about but when ur not ii feel like my world is over? How is it that I rather sit home waiting for you to come see me than go out with my friends? How is it that you could go out and I donr rhink your cheating? How is it that I don’t have 2 to say a word and you know how I feel and what I want? How is it that I give you my heart without hestitation? How is it that your my everything in only 4 months? How is it that we have sex and no feelings have changed? How is it that I could say I iove you and you can’t say it back ?


A Crime

I sit up early in the mornin and think if what I’m about to do is right. To take someones life ; isn’t that murder. Oh well I guess imma murderer and your just as guilty as me for having some say. As I get dress I hesitate. Thinking about this crime but times is hard so imma do it. As I sit around and wait I get nervous. My palms sweat and I begin to shake. What if my life would have been taken then what? Finally I go in to make the move. I lay down on the table and they stick me with a needle and then I’m sleep. I wake up lights to bright head is spinning but I did it. I get up and all I see is blood. I get help and clean can’t leave no evidence. All of a sudden I get a sharp pain. From what though is it guilt? Who knows. I made a promise ill never take another life but here I am in the abortion clinic once again !


Why is it that so many people are homophobic? Its nothing to be scared of everyone is still human no matter who they chose to date. Homophobia by the way is the fear or the discrimination against gay people. Sometimes people act as if though homosexuals are diseased people. They don’t run from us so why run from them. Do you ever think about the fact that they do have feelings. How would you feel if you were with you opposite sex partner and a homosexual made faces and whispered things about you and your relationship? I didnt think so. You have to think of them as humans not animals. A frequently asked question is ‘Are people born gay?’ Well there’s no real answer to that question. Your sexual preference is not determined at birth. You are born “neutral.” As you get older you determine your sexual preference.

Now many may not know but sexuality and sexual preference are two different things. Your sexuality is another word for your  gender or your sex (male or female).Now your sexual preference is what sex you prefer to be with simple huh? so i hope i got that out the way for you guys. Gay, lesbian, bisexual , etc also would fall under your sexual preference. Well that would be the title of whatever you chose to be.

However, once people [teenagers] discover their sexual preference they find it hard to tell their parents. Probably afraid to get rejected or began to feel unwanted. But here’s no safe way to really come out to your parents. My best advice is to find out on your own. Or maybe you can talk to someone else thats close to you so you wont feel alone. You can also ask other gave friends how they went about tell their parents that they are gay.

Why do homosexuals have such a hard time getting married? Who is the government tell people who they can and cannot marry? The discrimination against homosexuals must stop. It’s not fair to make them feel as if though they are less than because of who they chose to be with. The percentage of suicide in the gay community is very high. This needs o end now they are human just like us. Have a heart.


Teen Pregnancy

SO the united states has the largest pregnancy rates in teens. Its proven that one third of females get pregnant by the age of 20. Pregnancy can affect girls in many ways but they dont notice it. Some facts on teen pregnancy are:Facts on Teen Pregnancy:
• Teenage mothers are more likely to drop out of high school
• Be and remain single parents
• Score lower in math and reading into adolescence
How do you plan on helping your child if you never finish school? Your child is going to need some type of guidance and if they can’t get it from you where are they goiin to get it from? Teens may feel as if though they have no where to turn once they become pregnant but there are many centers that are available for teens to go to talk to someone. They may even help you and guide you through your pregnancy and help you with whatever choice you make whether its abortion or to give birth. Teen pregnancy can be prevented. Whether you use condoms or practice Abstinence. Abstinence means not having sex at all. Thats the only way that guarantees no pregnancy at all. A condom can pop or if not used correctly the semen can seep through and you can still become pregnant. Some teens get what i call the “I love you” pregnancy Or the unwanted pregnancy. This is the pregnancy when a boy say a line to you and convinces you that you dont need to use a condom. Then your left pregnant and lonely.
There are many effects in teenage pregnancy such as : Premature births, Mother’s health , and social complications. The younger you are when you get pregnant the more likely it is for you to experience these issues. At the ages of 15-20 your body is not fully developed to carry a full term baby. This will result in you giving birth earlier than expected and having a premature baby. A premature baby is a baby who is under weight and/or not fully developed. The pregnancy makes your body go through many different changes such as milk development in the breast, stretching of the skin, frequent urination and vomiting. Also you may began to experience mood swings and other emotional changes due to new hormones in your body. The pregnancy can also effect how the teen socialize with others. They may began to distant themselves afraid of what others will say about them.
Not all teens want a baby so they go through with abortions and adoptions. There’s nothing wrong with abortions or adoption. But with abortion comes depression. 1 in every 10 pregnant teens has committed suicide because of an abortion. The feeling and pressure of guilt was to much for them to deal with so they committed suicide. Why kill yourself over something that could have been avoided? Adoption can also make teens feel a certain way to the point they wanna take their lives. No need to kill yourself. Even if you cant talk to someone at home you can go and visit a teen center or even call an hotline to recieve help.
No one else controls your life so dont let a pregnancy control it either. Your teenage years are suppose to be the fun years. Why ruin it with a baby? Not saying babies arent a cute bundle of joy and not saying you shouldnt have them but wait until the time is right and you know exactly what your doing. You need to make sure you are having this baby for you and not for no one else.

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That’s not my name

What happened to girls just being cute , pretty, or sexy even? Why is it that now we are bad, hunnies and skins or when we do something inappropriate we are smuts whores and sluts. Someone please tell me where this originated from. I don’t understand. These words aren’t cute. Why is it that we get disrespected by boys but we kiss the ground they walk on. Why is it that boys calls us out of our names and we still manage to “fall in love” with them. I mean they call us these things and we answer to them. So are we giving them permission to say this. As a female we shouldn’t let them call us that. I mean we take it as a compliment so do we give them permission to continue. I mean we call boys by their name and we are everything but our names. We think its cute but little do we know they are talking about us behind our backs. If we let them start with the small things what makes you think they wont escalate. We need to put our foot down and let them know we have a name. Stop just answering to anything these boys call you. We have enough issues as it is. We cant have anything to ourselves so at least let us keep our identity. During slavery we didnt have a name. We was renamed by a man. So why is it now that we have a chance to be called our name and we still letting boys rename us. When are we going to be woman and have respect for ourselves. They disrespect us because we let them. We have no clue to the meanin behind these words. We only know what they tell us it mean. LADIES please stand up for yourself and let your name b known FELLAS respect females think you have a mother.